U2

I'm leaving to go to the U2 concert at the Delta Center. Try not to be too jealous.

Mexico

Well, I'm back from Mexico. Sometimes i don't even know why I go. it hurts so much. I love it, but it has the tendancy to iove me hours of thinking time. those hours translate into: what am I doing with my life? I always wanted to be a missionary, why am I in the youth ministry? am I supposed to be in youth ministry right now? how can I go back when I want to be here so much? among other things. you see, when I first went down, 5 years ago I think, we went for the church dedication in Nogalas, for Tony's church. I met Enedina's family, she's single and had 5 kids at the time. they are wonderful kids, who I spent a lot of time with and got pictures. then I went back about a year and a half later and spent a lot more time with them. that's how it's been the last 5 years. the frustrating thing for me is to see them growing up and not really being able to communicate. so then I always have the grand scheme to come back and continue learning Spanish; but all of the church responsibilities, and a full time job, school in the past, family, etc consume my time. then I go back and I'm frustrated again. at that point, I'm starting to wonder again if i'm using my time wisely and doing what God wants me to. which leads me to pray, and that's good. sigh. maybe I'm just discontent with where I live now? maybe being in San Lazero is new and seems better. I'm not sure.

so the trip was fun. we worked on the dorm some more-very slow going, but we got stuff done. we visted everyone, I gave photo albums to three families and they loved them. went to Cananea for the first time. got searched at the border again because for some reason, the silly guards don't believe us when we say, "no, we don't have any fruit or meat." My dad gets kinda ticked at them. I just laughed. so it was worth going, and God really helped me think about the youth ministry a lot as well. sometimes I wish I could go back to being my parents child and let them make all the decisions for me. haha. I know I can't.

so here I sit at home. not sure about anything anymore except: my parents love me. God is in control and will never let me down. Stockton water is the best in utah. the grand canyon is super amazing. david askvig is a good drummer. I won't ever date a mormon. green is the new pink. macs are better than pcs. black and red will always be my favorite colours. blonde hair is degenerate. free coffee is a good thing. girls aren't funny. I hate being sick. THE END>