newsflash

I think it's all fake. I don't think it's what God designed it to be. I think we've let ourselves become to ingrown, too comfortable with what the western version says it should be. there has to be more, there needs to be reality. I know it's out there, I see glimpses from other places. there is hope. but there is also still a bubble. a light, fluffy and self-indulged version of what Christ really died to bring.

and I don't think I can handle the facade anymore. it's bad enough to deal with my own selfishness, pride and hypocrisy. I don't want to be involved in a mass setting of it.

a message

my song is love

I can't

there's got to be medication for this.

good things

tehe

me??

looking into grad school at george mason and george washington. wow. barely a year ago did I even have a clue what I wanted to do. now life isn't big enough or long enough to fulfill my dreams.

status

I'm guessing a lot of people don't realize that many of my last status updates on facebook have been from 1 Corinthians 13. regarding love. because they keep trying to argue. and.....well, it's straight from the Bible. pretty clear. and truth. so it's rather amusing.

it's also a representation of what God's working in my heart. not that that matters, or anyone cares. or could even unpack that from my vagueness. but it is what it is.

is it worse to want to say something, but hold it in because of the fear of disapproval or offending someone? or is it worse to say something and be perfectly honest, but not caring about offending or garnering disapproval from others?

is this different than wanting to say it but choosing not to, because you DO care for other's opinions and value them over your own?

or, does it all depend solely on your heart's motivation? (i.e., saying something out of anger, or to prove you are right, or simply out of pride, or just because you think your opinions matter most?)

or is it better to remain transparent and honest with your feelings and opinions, despite the chance others will completely disagree?

hmm...